Miles Away (poem)

Miles Away Current mood: blank Category: Writing and Poetry ~Miles Away~ Feel my sleeping mind waking up to a mirror/ I've got an image that's just too near/ Each world on the end of a dreaming wonder/ I've got the hand -- I'm still a wander/ Losing my identity, isn't it such a question? Every time an Earth is lost & my mind crosses a next page to find my family plot/ Forgetting about today until tomorrow. Please don't spoil my day, I'm miles away, each time I stare out the window & sit on the dock of the bay, please don't walk my way, I'm myself in this haze. Against the blade of grass that could act Born awhile a time ago before anyone knew Banging the lagging plane as I smoke my fag When drags are a million miles of narrow Inexistent pictures sinking out of waves & away Mind I've seen drifts easily a thousand light-years Impressions lifted from forgotten tomorrows. Please don't spoil my day, I'm miles away, each time I stare out the window & sit on the dock of the bay, please don't walk my way, I'm myself in this haze.

Brian GET THA FUCK OVER YERSELF! Punk ass bitch!

Brian GET THA FUCK OVER YERSELF! punk ass bitch!
Current mood: irritated
Category: Life

Ive made serveral posts these few days. Mostly ta help get things off my mind as always, in hopes it wud bring some sort of relief in the areas that are bothersome to me deep within. Today I'm doin' it fer a few reasons ta vent, as well as ta let someone who may or may not read this know" I think yer an ignorant ass motha fucker who DOES NOT KNOW ME!! yer so fuckin stuck on yerself it's UNREAL cuz ya know what! U AIN"T SHIT!! yer none other than an immature wanna be! U AIN"T A MAN! U AIN"T A GOOD FATHER! 2 me yer nothing but a fuckin WASTE OF CUM! who cries more than a baby!" U think my updates are in reference 2 u? GET THA FUCK OVER YERSELF!!" My life no longer has anything ta do with u!! Continue ta let yer mamma & daddy raise yer kid! Lord knows they're doin a better job then u cud eva do! Any of my updates have NOTHING TA DO WITH U Unless yer name is there! U know not what goes on in my life! & NEVA WILL! yer psycho ass self really thinks I'd wanna have some LOSER like u as bein a prt of it? PALEASE pussy I DESERVE MUCH BETTER THAN THAT!! U can't scare me!! U CAN"T CONTROL ME! & THAT PISSES U OFF!! I GOTTA LIFE! A DAMN GOOD DRAMA FREE 1 @ THAT! u ain't nothin' but drama! Drama ain't me! So take yer drama ass, wanna b me, self on dwn tha line & leave me tha fuck alone! PALEASE HATE ME! cuz u ain't me! u ain't with me! u will NEVA have any type of friendship with me! When ya wonder y you have no TRUE FRIENDS,...evaluate yerself!! I know who/ what I am, so do all of my friends! They know me inside & out, like no otha! I got them, I've had them since the day we all met! HATE US cuz u will NEVA have what we have! or be us! A TRUE FRIENDSHIP! 1 that will NEVA B BROKEN BY ANYONE! Esp. some low life loser such as yerself! U think u cud come between us? ROFLMFAO guess we proved yo ass wrong!!, huh?! If u did anything to our friendship, all ya did wuz make it even stronger than b4 wtih yer psycho ass self! They always looked out fer me b4, now ya got their asses watchin' out after me even more! U didnt do shit ta me! U just hate it cuz I'mma better person than u eva have or eva will be! Or cud eva be with! Yeah I'm 2 GOOD 4 YO LOSIN ASS SELF! YEAH I WILL FIND ME 1 KICK ASS GOOOD MAN! Who knows how ta treat a REAL WOMAN such as myself. Ain't nothin but a thang ta me cuz I'm drama free & got my shit together in life! unlike u! so keep on steppin & let me b!

Ok today I'm just gonna BLOW SOME STEAM OFF! THAT"S LONG OVERDUE!
{I think} lol
First off! Do you have someone whom has entered yer life & ya wish ta hell they would drop off tha end of tha Earth!? I know I sure's tha heck do. Ya know those pesty parasites yer just unable ta get rid of, no matter how damn well ya try? Rather it's a past relationship partner, or an x-spouse that just keeps coming back! The ones' that are oblivious to tha definition of "GET LOST"' "DON"T WANTCHA, CANT STAND YA & DONT NEED YA ANYMORE." How about those who absolutely HATE seeing you happy? Those who seemingly, envelope your times of misery, who are unhappy with themselves or the choices in which they've made in life?,therefore; they try making everyone else's life around them miserable. Believing the only way they are able to gain happiness, is by knowingly, causing other people misery.
Yep. Well I have such an individual in my life. One who's unable to see me happy. Ya know what? It really PISSES ME OFF! When here I am working 1 full time job, 1 part time job, going to school 30 hours a week & raising 3 children, plus trying to keep up the house & some FUCK HEAD SITS THERE & MAKES A REMARK "Unlike SOME people, I work a full time job", to me! This fucker actually had tha damn balls to say that shit to me! NOW yer probably askin' what tha heck brought this on? lemme tell ya. I had seen a Wal-Mart bag on my stove with Pull ups in it, I had asked if by chance this person had picked up anything else from there. The answer was "no" I then asked why did this person only pick up pull ups when there were other things needed for the house, not to mention food. The answer was,"because we needed pull ups". "Ok" I said, "well ya know I need to go to Wal--Mart on a weekly basis practically, & I like to go on either Friday or Saturdays when I have the chance, so do you feel like making another trip out there to take me? or can I just use your vehicle?" this person's reply was,"no I'm not making another trip all the way out there, if you need to go then yer just gonna have to get there yourself somehow." I then told this person that he was aware of the fact there were no groceries in the house & the children had to eat & they needed toilet paper to wipe their butts with, not ta mention breakfast in the morning or soap to bathe with. I then told him that the kids aren't able to stay healthy by eating fast food all tha time like they had been every night for tha past week.Yes, I must say, by this time I was gettin pretty annoyed at the whole ordeal. He gets up & tells the kids he would see them in the morning. I told him no he wouldn't there was no need for him to even stop by in tha morning. I called my best friend & asked her if she had to go to tha store or Wal-Mart tonight, just as he heard me conversing with her he turned around & started talking smack. I told my friend I would give her a call back & just as I had said that, he shut his mouth, & walked away to leave.AS he walked towards his Blazer I asked him, why he hadn't gone to tha store since he has transportation? his response, & I do QUOTE EXACTLY WHAT HE SAID, & has ALWAYS SAID, " I can't because I had all of the kids with me, I could if I had a babysitter while I went." NOW I ASK, WHAT KIND OF FUCKED UP SHITTY ASS EXCUSE IS THAT? IF i CAN TAKE THE KIDS TO THA STORE WITH ME THEN WHY CAN'T U? {that's when the schniddish remark about the full time job came in} so I reminded him of my 2 jobs & school & taking care of the kids & I STILL TAKE THA KIDS TO THA STORE WITH ME! IF I CAN DO IT, THEN WHY CANT U? i'LL TELL YA WHY! IT'S NOT BECAUSE YA CAN'T, IT'S BECAUSE YOU DON'T WANT TOO! SO DON'T SIT THERE & TELL ME ITS BECAUSE YOU HAVE A FULL TIME JOB BECAUSE ALL OF MY JOBS ARE A HELL OF ALOT MORE THEN YOUR SO CALLED FULL TIME JOB. Before I was able to finish what I was sayin', he had his window rolled up & was backing out of tha drive. The neighbors across the street were outside, being nosey as to which I don't care, due to tha fact tha truth was spoken, & as we all know,the truth hurts those who are being slapped with it. His way of dealing with the truth is by running from it. Well guess what buddy! It's all gonna catch up with ya sooner or later, and when it does it's gonna hit'cha like a runaway freight train!